One of the most beautiful things in life is when you stop listening to others and you begin trusting your own head and heart you are making the best decision for yourself.
Now, I know I do not have to explain myself to you, but I do feel as if it is necessary to give a background of why I quit my role as a flight attendant because some of you all have been a part of this journey since the beginning. Or you have made such an impact on my life that I feel it is only important to explain my departure with you.
So here goes..
For those of you who are close to me can understand that the last three years of working for the airlines has been a MAJOR challenge for me both mentally and physically. I was in a dark place many times and always feeling guilty that I could not accept this job was not for me. I saw others loved it, but why didn’t I? I constantly questioned if it was just me. But through many pep talks, self-reflections, and trying to stay in a positive light over the years, I decided to re-focus on all the opportunities I was being given by being a flight attendant. So, I went for it ALL.
Being a flight attendant gave me the opportunities to fulfill dreams I never thought were possible. I would have never been able to attend several fashion weeks in New York City, Haute Couture Fashion Week in Paris, or the American Music Awards in Los Angeles if it were not for being in this time and place in my life. And let me just add that I had never traveled outside of the country until I accepted this role, so it was truly “A Whole New World”.
Through solo traveling, I gained more independence and strength as I pushed myself outside of my comfort zone in maneuvering around foreign countries. And being a FA also taught me how to “try” to be more patient with humanity, and learn to like people (which, I still kinda-ish do not so that never changed). I also gained a few pounds, but that’s besides the point I suppose.
But in all seriousness… while being on reserve and managing an unstable and inconsistent lifestyle I learned that the fear of the unknown is okay and to keep living life in the moment instead of fearing what “could happen”. And last, this experience also taught me that all of our daily problems, or the things we complain about the most, are so small compared to everything else going on in our world today.
Through this journey, I am also thankful to have met some of the most beautiful people through my travels whom showed me beauty in simplicity. I was also very lucky to gain sassy, fun, compassionate, and astrology-different co-worker friends that brought out the light in my life. I will never forget all the hundreds of therapists I gained while sitting on a jumpseat.
The whole experience has truly been humbling and I am so grateful for all of the good times, as well as the struggles that gave me the self-growth I needed. But, I always knew my flight attendant chapter had an expiration date. And through many prayers, counseling, and the help of friends, I decided to quit my role as a flight attendant because I felt as if this role no longer served its purpose.
Now, I do not take quitting anything lightly. I do not quit anything unless I’ve measured every angle. How can I quit something that has given me sooo much in return? I know it’s “just a job” but anything I put my effort and emotions into is not just a job. Especially when my job has gave me everything it could given until the sand ran out of the hourglass.
So after five years of being away from home; from the time I moved to Los Angeles without a plan and feeling lost; then moving across the country to New Jersey for the role of being a flight attendant; I discovered that my new purpose is waiting for me in Indiana. Our farm family business, my cool beans family, and my two 70 year old grandparents whom are my world. I feel as if this is my new calling and where I need to be in my life right now.
I could go more into detail of the MAAANY reasons I decided to leave the airlines, like the dreaded 2 am ringtone that still makes my heart stop every time I hear it or how my brain felt like it was not being stimulated, but I feel as if this was all by personal preference and my reasons for leaving outweighed staying. Everyone is different and it takes a special person to be able to be a flight attendant. There is no other job like being a flight attendant. I am just SO happy I can now take off my mask and stop being an actress…showee I feel like I can finally breathe again.
The end of this chapter is bittersweet, but I am SO THANKFUL and humbled that I can one day look back at this experience thanks to the thousands of photos and memories I made. Thank you all for following this experience and all those who were a part of this absolutely dramatic, exciting, yet one of the most beautiful rides I have ever been on. I certainly enjoyed sharing this chapter with you all.♥️
And one last note, and I don’t mean to brag, but I am just so dang proud of myself for moving outside of my hometown of Indiana, then going out into this world and making so many of my dreams come true!!! I will take these experiences and continue to evolve into the next phases of my life. I can only hope I inspired others to follow their dreams as well.✨